Friday, February 13, 2009
Living a nobody's life is really not all that exciting. It pains to see how quick people lose hope on you.
It was not always like this. I was somebody sometime. But then now.. hmm.. Am i living in my past glories?? Probably. But then, it is not like i chose to. Thats the only place i get my energy and motivation from. Looking back at who i was shows what i can be. Is it bad? I dont know.
"I dont know". A phrase that is by default imbibed in most of my sentences. How come i have suddenly become all that confused in life. I have no goal, no path, no motivation and no energy. I am currently living a zombie's life. I just have to restart. Just that i dont know from where.
I am not sure how long this is gona last but the dip has been made. I guess this is where i realise how low can i fall. I have already passed my previous rock bottom. I hope to find the rock bottom soon so that i can rise from there.
But then, wishful thinking gets you no where. How i wish it could. Its getting really hard to hang in here. Its frustrating. Its Draining. I guess this is the side effect of choosing a path that is less travelled. I don't have things laid in front of me... nor do i expect it that way. But, its just getting so hard to sustain the energy.
Hang in there. No pain. Keep the spirit going. Accepting defeat is not an option. Failing does not exist.